I’m reading old entries of you, words I scribbled over tears and friends urging me to be rational. Entries that consumed me and that eventually brought me to this place. A new year is coming and my thoughts are still with you. Lips I used to love to kiss and a sadness of your loss that I never thought I would recover are with me greater than ever as I watch the clock moving closer to a different time. I’m lost in a memory. We have so much different lives now. I’m not sure the gravity of this change really hit me until now. I’m not sure were even in the same time zones anymore, is your year starting at my midnight? When our friends are done rattling off the count down we will be kissing other people, feeling someone else’s body and tasting a strangers tongue. But still, my thoughts are with you. Always. I’m counting on this midnight to make you vanish from my mind, that I will lose you and my memories will be lost somewhere else: In a new year.
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